While I can’t do a triple axel, I used to be able to do a single axel. In a world far far away, I was a figure skater and was so obsessed with it that I was in the ice rink from 6am till 1am and in between school and homework. I lived and breathed it up until that point my coach told me, probably out of exasperation for whatever reason that day, that I was going to fuck up my performance. The performance was supposed to feature Transformation, a song off The Beauty & The Beast’s original soundtrack. I listened to it for weeks before I decided that that was the song. But I was twelve and lacked the maturity to see through the bullshit. So I quit the next day.
It’s still a story I tell others and one I tell again today. There’s always a tinge of sadness and regret every time I recall that point in my life where I gave up a dream. Ever since then I have never been consumed by any one thing lest it shatter me like it did my pre-teen heart, a long long time ago.